Older Work
This section is dedicated to some of my early work. All I ask is that you read these early pieces with grace and compassion for the burgeoning writer who crafted them.
What Will Be
Waiting; Painful; Tortuous
Sublime surrender to what is
What will be
Remembering; Wishful; Sweetness
Sensual exhale to what is
What will be
Imagining; Carefree; Tenderness
Satisfied contentment to what is
What will be
~1 April 2006
Confused, searching for answers
Wanting clarity, yet fearing it
Anxiety swelling, bubbling up
from my stomach to my throat
~5 April 2006
Amazing
Spoken often, little meaning
Taken to heart, then broken
Pieces to pick up, time and again
Deep breath, wishful thoughts
... of what might have been
~19 May 2006
Manhattan
Upper Manhattan
Dream of some, reality to many
Continuous motion, hustle here and there
Energy never ending, rhythmic movement
Night turns to day turns to night
City as any other
restaurants, construction, work
City as no other
Times Square, Empire, Carnegie
Manhattan - The City
~July 2006
Stay
Never far from my heart
Shadows of you on my mind
Phantom feelings of your touch
You were here, if only for a moment
Thoughts of you; my heart sings
Sweetness on my lips
Your touch tingles my skin
You are here, if only for a moment
Within my heart, you are etched
Daydreaming of the future
Yearning for a lifetime of touches
Are you here to stay?
~February 2006
Before
I’ve met you before
A lifetime ago, each were someone else
I recognize your eyes, softening at
your memory of me
I’ve met you before
Long ago in another world
I recognize your touch, reminiscent of
ghostly memories
I’ve met you before
A mirror of my soul, within myself
I recognize your pain, your agony
deep within
I’ve met you before
Somewhere in time
I recognize your soul, the
completion of mine
~15 April 2006
Soul Mates
Lifelong search satisfied
Recognition of souls once met
Hearts sing for the other
Sublime oneness from two
Contentment with silent understanding
Mirrors to each, yet not exact
Calm knowing of love found
Surrender to the greater whole
Halves completing each other
Divine creation of a perfect union ...
Soul Mates
~20 April 2006
Two
Two asynchronous souls longing
for discovery
Soul mate, figment of my imagination
Surprising intensity for the brevity
of time together
Soul mate, illusions of the heart
With depth and permanence
unexpected
Soul mate, wistful wanderings of dream time
Leaving an indelible mark
on heart and mind
~27 May 2006
Beau
He came into my life with a smile and a word: “Cheers”. I allowed myself to be swept off my feet; he obliged.
Our time together was precious and short: two souls, whose paths briefly intersected, fused, then separated and continued down the path only Spirit understands.
Both enriched by the other’s presence, both pained by the conclusion. Neither wanting to move forward, but understanding that is all there is to do.
He yearns to know himself and his purpose; this will not be an easy or painless journey and it is one he must travel alone. I am unsure if our paths will ever cross again (crossing paths again was not meant to be) I’ve moved on and will forever be grateful for the interlude.
My life has been filled with joy and happiness, for the person I have chosen to spend it with is, above all else a gentleman. Gentle, loving and grateful for my presence, he is someone I would not have found had it not been for my past.
Every person I have been blessed to meet and have part of my life has helped me find myself, my purpose and desires.
Thank you to those who have been there through it all and those who are just coming into my life. To you, I have not the words to express my eternal gratitude.
~August 2006
Renewed Joy
Trembling and shaking
Realization washes over me
My body aches with remembrance
Undulating pain of memory mixed
with unmet desire
Desire is insufficient
Emotions crash over one another
My body aches with remembrance
Waves of disbelief splits my
heart wide open
Heart struggles to heal
Time stands still, marching on
My body aches with remembrance
Paralyzed with fear, hesitant to
move on in life
Fear and hope intertwine
Mind reeling in the chaos
My body aches with remembrance
Resolution infused with hope
brings a hint of renewed joy
~April 2006
I Woke
I woke, smiled, stretched
Your touch fresh on my skin
The taste of your kiss lingers
You are not here - was it a dream?
Memories flood my consciousness
Remembering your embrace
Echoes of your voice remains
You are not here - are you a dream?
An apparition in my awareness, yet
Footprints in the snow confirm your existence
Footprints in the snow confirm your presence here
Footprints in the snow are fleeting
~January 2006
You
I woke to your sweet smell
on my pillow
Watching you breathe
the breath of the satiated
Ingraining the image into my
most intimate memories
Where are you, as I am
silently slipping into
sweet slumber?
~30 March 2006